well here you go..

xaniawolf:

You know how you’ve known some people in your life for long amounts of time, and you’ve been friends on facebook for just as long. Ever tried scrolling through the beginning of messages you’ve sent each other and then getting to the end and seeing how much has changed? How much you’ve both grown and how you haven’t grown apart necessarily but you’ve grown separately together. Really just try to remember a couple people, or maybe just one person who you’re still very close to and who you’ve known for a while, and just look back at the things you said to each other. What mattered and what matters and silly little things that used to encompass your entire universe. It baffles me. Then I stop and remember how fucking lucky I am to have someone like that in my life, and how despite everything; the anger, the despair, the loneliness, triumphs, happiness, denial, sadness—we’re still here. We’re still talking even when you said goodbye, even when I said ok. Despite months of silence and despite lies and betrayal. I’d like to think that for some people in my life, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to maintain something I’ve invested so much love and effort into. It is not easy to let go, nor will I ever find cutting such ties worth it. Never. 

(via illuminatemypath)